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Friday, October 29, 2010

Spoon Time

Ever had one of those days when you feel like it takes so much to get out of bed that by the time you're dressed you've got nothing left? Of course, most of us have. Today was definitely one of those days for me. I slept badly and woke up worse today.

The bright spot that got me up and moving, as usual, was my boys. Today was costume day for Connor. I didn't get any pictures yet, but they should get sent to us early next week. In the meantime you can see Connor with his Cookie Monster slippers. Connor and I had a fun talk on the way in, about what I don't recall.

Despite the fatigue, I had a good time at our little afternoon social at work. My boss had a very scary costume: Manager in a Full Suit. If you knew the man you'd know how scary that can be. Lately I've been getting a lot of satisfaction out of work and that is a HUGE improvement for me. It doesn't fix the constant fatigue, but I do feel good know I'm being more effective.

The end of the day was less graceful than I would have liked. I went to Connor's school social, which made him very happy. The teachers told me it started @ 3:30, but in fact it wasn't starting until 4. So I was there early and felt truly in the way. The party was slow in starting-after all, organizing 18 preschoolers is like herding cats. We finally got our pumpkin for carving around 4:30. Through all of this, Connor's class mates (and him of course) were doing what they do best: causing chaos. Those of you who know me probably realize that wasn't a good environment. I don't deal with multiple conversations well, let alone this level of chaos and noise. I practiced a breathing technique I learned recently: the Breath of oceans rolling. Breath in through the nose into the solar plexus, then out through the mouth. I'm finding that it does wonders for helping me remain calm in stressful situations. We had a pretty good time and Connor got to help pop out the pumpkin's mouth after the carving, which he loved. I felt almost dead on my feet by the end of it, though. It took almost all my spoons to get through the chaos.

Then it was time to drop by the martial arts studio to pick up a few things. And I thank God that we did need to make that stop. I normally drive Connor home via I-40 to Aviation Parkway. At the same time we would have driven by there, a car caught fire on our usual side of the highway, right after a bad wreck on the other side. So both sides were at a total stand-still. When I heard this one the radio's traffic report all I could think was: that could have been us.

We finally got home rather late and I almost fell down in the driveway from fatigue and dizziness. I did manage to get the Cutiepie and his stuff into the house and Michael made dinner for the boys. I then quickly crashed on the couch and didn't move for at least half an hour. It might have been longer. There was just no way to keep moving after that.

I'm hoping tomorrow is easier as it's my big chance to spend a few hours withe boys decorating Halloween scenes and pumpkins. Here's hoping.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Upcoming Craft Fair

SAS is holding their annual employee craft fair on December 1st. I have decided to get a booth this year and sell some of my knitted and crochet pieces. Maybe some of my home-made jewelry, too. It should be a lot of fun. So far I have created a few scarves and two different styles of market bag.

The first market bag was the green variegated one below. I loved that color-this photo does not do it justice. I might be almost hoping that one doesn't sell. ;) The other, which I like to call the cow bag because of the black and white spotted look, was also fun. The photo doesn't do that one justice, either, but it's cute. It reminds me of my Grandpa, who worked in the dairy extension program at NCSU for much is his career. When my sister and I were kids he used to take us over to the vet school and let us play with and pet the cows. And no, we didn't tip them. I guess I'll always have a soft spot in my heart for cows.

I am working on a little crocheted baby sleep sack too, but that'll take slightly longer I think. I'm have a good time doing the projects and actually accomplishing something at night. Not sure how this will work with NaNoWriMo starting in a few days, but I guess I'll just have to learn some serious time management skills.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010


So I haven't posted anything in quite some time. The summer was a tough time for me after losing my BFF Daniel on Cinco de Mayo. I remember the week after the funeral I had several dreams about him. Last night I had another. The theme always seems to be the same: he's not really gone. Halfway through the dream I'll always realize that he shouldn't be there, that he has passed away, but we always move on and interact again.

It's been awhile since I practiced dream interpretation, but I don't think this one takes much work. I miss him-that's obvious. I particularly missed yesterday when I realized I couldn't go to my taekwondo class and really wanted to hang out with someone. He has been my go-to dude for so long. We could talk about anything, joke about anything, disagree about everything and still be best friends.

We were polar opposites politically. Normally you'd think that would make for lots of griping at election time, but it didn't. We had so many deep discussions about various candidates and it didn't matter that we disagreed. We both were interested in hearing the other side. Why can't real political debates be like that?

Daniel introduced me to so many things I never would have enjoyed without him, including Red Dwarf, the new Battlestar Galactica, and playing the board game Life just for starters. Last night's dream had one main image that kept occurring over and over- a hug. I must have felt like I needed one and he was the one to give it.